Apple apricot chocolate nut cake

Fruit and nut cake

Fruit and nut cake

I feel as though I don’t listen to whole albums any more, unless I’m in the car, which isn’t very often. I’m so distracted most of the time that I’ll listen to a song here or a song there, or sometimes a big mix of songs. But when I do listen to an album as an album, I remember the very great pleasure of it. And the part that I like best is when there are one or two songs in a row that I love together. Usually it’s three songs, and it’s the part of the album I most look forward to…the jammy filling in the middle of the album, or the transcendent ending. For instance I love Franks Wild Years, which ends with Cold Cold Ground, Train Song, and then Innocent When you Dream. Does anybody else listen to albums in this way? With a trio of songs they look forward to somewhere in the mix? If so, add them to our Sunday interactive playlist, or leave a message in the comments and I’ll try to add it myself. It could be two songs or four songs, and it could be songs from a mixed tape that you’ve made or somebody made for you. The rules are very flexible here at The Ordinary!

I wanted a fruit crumble, but also something I could carry around with me, something that would last a little longer, so I made this cake. It has apricots, apples, golden raisins, hazelnuts, pecans and almonds, as well as chocolate chips. It’s like a fresh fruit cake, or a fruit and nut cake, or a trail mix cake. Good in the morning with coffee.

Here’s a link to your interactive playlist. Hopefully it works this week!!
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Isaac’s chocolate chocolate pecan cake

Isaac's chocolate chocolate pecan cake

Isaac’s chocolate chocolate pecan cake

David recently bought The Blind Leading the Naked, by The Violent Femmes. What a time warp!! It’s such an evocative album, and it’s funny because it’s evocative for David, too, and it’s not like Violent Femmes’ Violent Femmes, which is probably evocative for everybody who was a teenager in America at the time. It brings back strange specific memories. I remember going for a long trip in a friend’s car, and he was obsessed with this album. I fast-forwarded through a song I didn’t feel like hearing, without asking (cassette tape!) He got really angry, because it was a thoughtless and self-centered thing to do, which, in all fairness, it was. And later he stopped being friends with me on grounds of thoughtlessness and self-centeredness, which in all fairness was probably true of me at the time, too. But mostly the album brings back pleasant memories, of adventures with friends. And it brings back memories for David of the same time and the same part of the world, but we didn’t know each other at all. But we might have crossed paths, we might have been in the same city, listening to the same song, and not even knowing it. And now Isaac likes the album, too, and he has some of the lyrics memorized with uncanny awareness and precision (we’re going to have to be very very careful what we listen to around this boy!) One song in particular, I want to listen to over and over. It’s Good Friend. It seems strangely perfect to listen to it now, to remember a time when my heart probably was in a mess every time I turned around, but to be sitting next to the best friend I’ll ever have, sharing our separate memories. I particularly like the part in the middle where he talks. The music grows hushed, you’re waiting for it, you’re ready for it. Like all talking parts in the middle of songs, you know he’s going to be sincere and serious, you know he’s going to be sincerious, and in a few lines his personality and his peculiarly stylish style shines through with such clarity. I love it. So this week’s interactive playlist is songs in which the singer talks in the middle, songs with that beautiful part where you get to the bridge and you find somebody on it, talking to you about all the things in his or her heart. Conversely, we can also have hip hop songs in which the rapper sings unexpectedly, because I love those too.

Isaac designed this cake. His birthday is coming up, and this cake was sort of the rehearsal. He wanted chocolate cake with chocolate chips and pecans. He wanted vanilla and cinnamon, and he wanted powdered sugar and brown sugar. I decided to make it in the style of a genoise, because I find that a fun cake to make, and I didn’t want it to be too much like pecan brownies. So this is dense but softish, too.

Here’s a link to the interactive playlist. This is one of those subjects I’m going to need help with. I always hear a song with a taking part and think…I’ll remember that to use in a playlist, but then I always forget when the actual time comes.

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Chocolate chocolate chip spice cake

Chocolate chocolate chip spice cake

Chocolate chocolate chip spice cake

I had a dream last night that the boys were flying small airplanes. (Must have been because we watched Gamera!) I think they dropped fruit from their airplanes, or maybe fruit-flavored candy (it is Halloween, after all!) And in the cockpit of each was a flashing light which said, “CONFORM.” I think my understanding in the dream was that this meant that the planes conformed to safety standards–always a good thing. Of course it read as a message to my boys as well, those glowing yellow lights. CONFORM! David was saying just the other day that Malcolm must be trying to figure out if he’s normal, and just what normal is. He’s at that age. His teachers say “Malcolm’s like this,” and his friends say “Malcolm’s like that,” and surely Malcolm must know best of all what Malcolm is like, but it’s not always that simple, is it? And how do you say, “Yes, you’re perfectly normal, you’re just like everybody else?” And at the same time say, “Normal is not all that it’s talked up to be.” I have watched him with his friends and classmates, and he’s an eleven-year-old boy like any other. They’re all loopy. You want them to be just like everybody else in the ways that make life easy, but good grief do I love all the ways that they are just like themselves and nobody else in the world. For Halloween they’re a wizard motorcycle captain and a devil boat captain. When they walk up to a door and somebody says, “And what are you, son?” They don’t say, “A pirate!” and run off the porch. They need to pull up a chair and say, “Well, it all started many years ago. You see, I was a normal boat captain once…” They’re characters! They have a story! They have a history. And normal children might worry about their house being burgled, but for Isaac it’s not impossible that a burglar will come to our house wearing squirrel-smelling perfume, and all the humans in the house will think, “Oh it’s just a squirrel in our bedroom,” (because that happens all the time) but Clio will say, “Wait a minute…” I cleaned up their room yesterday and I unearthed such a treasure of funny stories they started, and creatures they invented, perfectly normal games they combined to make way better games, odd contraptions they’ve devised of broken toys and electrical tape. They’re geniuses, I tell you! Mad geniuses! So maybe being normal means just pretending to be like everyone else, but if everybody is pretending to be like everybody else, and everybody is actually a little crazy, where does that leave us? I told Malcolm that maybe getting by in school, in this day of standardized tests, means just trying to figure out the rules, like it’s a game. And he said, “That’s easy, it’s just one button to press, over and over.” I suppose like all things it’s a balance. And we’re all in it together, we’re all holding up this fragile thing we’ve created, this semblance of sanity and normalcy, made from fragile wires and papers, but buoyed by the fire of our creativity and imagination. You need to learn to walk the line, but if you spend too much time in the middle of the road, you’ll get run over.

I love molasses. It’s such an odd, old-fashioned flavor. It tastes like autumn to me. I decided to combine it with very dark cocoa powder and sweet spices to make a cake. And of course I added chocolate chips because everything is better with chocolate chips. Yes, Malcolm told me last week that I make to many cakes, but he wasn’t complaining about this one, because he loves it. He says it’s like spicy brownies.

Here’s Johnny Cash with I Walk the Line.
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Hazelnut oatmeal chocolate cake with cinnamon and black pepper

hazelnut oat chocolate cake

hazelnut oat chocolate cake

My sister-in-law and her wife are getting married today! If that sentence doesn’t make much sense, it’s because the world hasn’t made much sense for years, but it’s starting to look a lot more sensible here in New Jersey. Christy and Danni were civil-unioned on this date six years ago, and today they’re getting married married. I’m so happy for them and proud of them, and I’m so happy my boys get a chance to stand up with them at their wedding. They are a perfect example of two remarkable people who make a remarkable couple. Danni is a set-builder, and Christy is a photographer and a teacher and a poet, and it’s always seemed to me that they have made their lives, they have made their life together. They have a picture of how their life could be, and they use their great energy and resourcefulness to make it that way, and to keep it that way. They use their enviable cheerfulness and passion to set their lives aglow, to capture all the beautiful moments, and they use their generosity to share it all with their friends and family. Anyone who is married will tell you that as well as bringing joy and comfort, marriage takes a lot of work, and Christy and Danni make the work look like fun. It makes so much sense for them to be together, just as it makes sense that any two people in love should be married if they want to, and it’s a beautiful thing to see the world shifting in this direction. It feels like a real triumph, to stand up to bullies like Chris Christie and anyone else who operates out of hate and fear. Today is a joyful day, a beautiful golden autumn day, to share love and to celebrate the fact that sometimes the world does change for the better.

The other day, Malcolm looked at me very seriously and said, “Mom, you make too many cakes.” And he’s right, I probably do. (I have one in the oven now!) But it’s so comforting to make them, and they’re so nice to eat on dark and icy October mornings and evenings. Hazelnut and chocolate is an obviously delicious combination. I combined it, here with some oats and spices, to make a sort of top-of-the-coffeecake cake. It’s got a crumbly consistency and a nice earthy spicy flavor.

Here’s The Turtles with Happy Together

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Chocolate-covered coconut milk cake

Chocolate-covered coconut milk cake

Chocolate-covered coconut milk cake

David’s building a shed in the back yard. I said, “You’re working on a building!” And he said, “A holy crap building!” Because he’s never built a shed before. They say it’s good for you to try something new, but it’s not without its challenges. David is doing a beautiful job, though. I love our shed, and I’ve liked it every step of the way. It feels full of possibilities. At first it was a stage for our Isaac (as is the whole world, of course). Then, once it had a few walls, it became the perfect setting for a tableau vivant. I joked that he could add glass walls, thinking of an aviary or a greenhouse, and he said with glass walls it could be a writer’s room for me. I could see it with turrets and little staircases and balconies, like some mad 18th-century folly. Maybe it will be a smokehouse or a chicken coop or a fancy accommodation for Clio. David talked about putting a screech-owl cote on top, and painting the wall visible from the window with something nice to see when you look out upon the yard. Our house is a crazed tumble of crooked lines and angles, and the sloped roof of the shed is a perfect addition, adding one more level of ramble to a structure that’s been altered and amended for over 150 years. After one rough day at school, Malcolm raced home to help David with the shed, and it was a beautiful thing to watch him out there, happy and confident and actually helpful, wielding a drill with assurance and agility. It’s inspiring and hopeful to watch David build this tiny house; he’s making something solid and useful and simple but pleasing to the eye, as well. I like to think about the shed as part of our eccentric home, weathering the years with the rest of us. And I’m grateful for a dry bicycle seat! And that’s my story about the shed.

I had some leftover coconut milk, so I decided to make a cake. This has a subtle coconut flavor, but no flaked coconut, so the texture of the cake is smooooooth. Completely smooth. The chocolate on top adds a nice flavor and a bit of texture. A nice, simple cake, and very easy to make.

Here’s Working on a Building by Bill Monroe and his Bluegrass Boys.
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Almond praline cake

Almond praline cake

Almond praline cake

It’s Saturday storytelling time again!! It’s been a while! I’ve worked on this one quite a bit. Gone, gone are the days of waking up at 7 before the boys do, writing down anything in my head and calling it a story. Now I spend weeks “working” on it. Of course “working” on a story, for me, means thinking about it, dreaming about it, not actually writing anything, and worrying that it’s just the wrong time to start putting anything on paper. As you may recall from the distant past of Saturday storytelling time, the stories are inspired by a picture from the brilliant website Square America. I’ll take a random snapshot of a complete stranger, and invent a past and future for the moment that it captures. Here’s this week’s picture, of a woman swimming.
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The story is very loosely based on the tale of Hercules and his friend Hylas. As Theocritus tells us, “We are not the first mortals to see beauty in what is beautiful. No, even Amphitryon’s bronze-hearted son, who defeated the savage Nemean lion, loved a boy—charming Hylas, whose hair hung down in curls.” One or two lines in my story are taken straight from a translation of the myth, but I won’t tell you which ones! And now, I’ve probably said too much! Never explain a story, right? The story is after the jump.

Almond praline cake

Almond praline cake

Today we will speak not of beets, nor will we speak of beans and greens, as we have so oft done of late. We will speak of cake!! This time of year I always have a cake around. Something simple, usually, to have with coffee in the morning (or all day long.) This cake is inspired by a tart from my French cookbook of the 60s, but it doesn’t count in our French-cake-a-week series because I’ve changed it quite a bit. This would have been the filling of a tart, and it would have had a crust around it. But for once I didn’t feel like making a tart! The cake has almonds and jam in it. The jam is mixed right in, and I think it gives it a nice, mysterious, juicy flavor and texture. The recipe calls for marmalade, but I used Four Fruits, because it’s just so good. I think it’s called a praline cake because you scatter almonds and sugar on the top to make a sort of crust. I used raw sugar, but you can use anything with largish crystals of sugar. I added some at the end and put it under the broiler, but when you do this be very careful, because you don’t want to burn the almonds!! The recipe’s after the story, after the jump.

Here’s Tom Waits’ Gin Soaked Boy, because I borrowed a line for my story, and because I love it.

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Almond ricotta and jam cake

Ricotta jam cake

Ricotta jam cake

Sometimes I get so tired of my own voice. Partly this is because I talk a lot. To any person or dog who will listen to me. Partly it’s because I write this Ordinary nonsense nearly every day, going on and on and on about whatever flighty thought flits through my brain. David, on the other hand, is a very thoughtful talker. He thinks before he speaks, in stark contrast to my constant thoughtless chatter. He said that sometimes, halfway through a sentence, he’ll decide that what he’s saying isn’t all that important, and he’ll just stop talking. As it happens, most of what he says is smart, funny, and worth hearing. So today I’m going to let him do a guest post, whether he likes it or not, and give my tired and tiring voice a rest. (She says after having gone on and on about how she’s not going to go on and on!) It’s here, at Antick’s website, and I really love it. Here’s a picture from it.
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Almond-ricotta jam cake

Almond-ricotta jam cake

I bought some fresh ricotta at Trader Joe’s, and there’s a warning inside that says once it’s opened it has to be used right away! I used some in a savory tart, and I had about a cup left over, so I decided to make a cake with it. It’s not a cheesecake, because it has flour and ground almonds in it, but it is a dense, satisfying cake. I also splurged on some bonne maman four fruits jam, and that features prominently here as well. Again, this is an easy cake to make, I used the food processor for the whole thing.

Here’s the White Stripes with Black Jack Davey.

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Hazelnut chocolate cherry tart

Hazelnut chocolate cherry tart

Hazelnut chocolate cherry tart

David showed me a story earlier today, and I can’t stop thinking about it. [David showed it to me here, on Futility Closet, where you can read the whole story much more concisely and coherently.] It concerns Michel Navratil, the last survivor of the Titanic. He and his brother, who were 2 and 3 years of age at the time, survived the crash, but had no adult to claim them after, and spoke no English, so they came to be known as “the titanic orphans.” A woman who had been in their lifeboat looked after them until the true story could be discovered. As it happens, they were the children of a French tailor who had taken them from his estranged wife, and planned to escape to America with them. He’d taken them to Monte Carlo, and then to England, and they’d boarded the Titanic under assumed names. As the ship was sinking, their father “…dressed me very warmly and took me in his arms, A stranger did the same for my brother. When I think of it now, I am very moved. They knew they were going to die.” Michel’s voice is so sweet and thoughtful, and his memories are so unexpected, yet so perfect for a child. You can’t help but fill in the story, you can’t help but wonder if the brothers were friends, as my boys are. Did they travel with their arms around each other, as my boys do? They’d already had such adventures by the time they reached the Titanic; were they scared? Were they angry at their father? Did they know where they were going? What would their life have been like if the ship had never crashed? Michel does not remember being scared. He enjoyed his time on the Titanic, he found it “A magnificent ship!…I remember looking down the length of the hull – the ship looked splendid. My brother and I played on the forward deck and were thrilled to be there. One morning, my father, my brother, and I were eating eggs in the second-class dining room. The sea was stunning. My feeling was one of total and utter well-being.” And even after they struck the iceberg, he wasn’t frightened, “I don’t recall being afraid, I remember the pleasure, really, of going plop! into the life-boat. We ended up next to the daughter of an American banker who managed to save her dog–no one objected. There were vast differences of people’s wealth on the ship, and I realized later that if we hadn’t been in second-class, we’d have died. The people who came out alive often cheated and were aggressive, the honest didn’t stand a chance.” Michel and his brother were eventually discovered by their mother and taken back to France (on a boat!) His brother died aged 43 in 1953. Michel became a professor of philosophy, and he lived to be 92 years old. But he says, “I died at 4. Since then I have been a fare-dodger of life. A gleaner of time.” A gleaner of time. Good grief.
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I call this a cake, but you could make it in a square pan and cut it into bars and call it bar cookies. It’s dense and delicious. It has dried cherries, toasted hazelnuts, oats, and chocolate. It’s plain in many ways, but it’s also complicated and delicious. David and I joked that it was like trail mix bars, but trail mix bars with plenty of butter and sugar in them!!

Here’s Take Me in a Lifeboat by Flatt & Scrubbs
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Lemon cream tart

Lemon cream tart

Lemon cream tart

My resumé looks like a tattered patchwork quilt. The pieces are fading and torn, the pattern strange and irregular, and it has giant gaps. Nothing quite reaches, nothing fits together. This makes it fun to apply for things! It’s a craft project!! First there’s the entirely practical and responsible career as an editor, then there’s the entirely irresponsible and impractical career as an independent film maker. And then both of these trails become lost in a tangle of overgrown undergrowth, a riot of branches and new green leaves and flowers and shifting sunshine and shadow. This is, of course, where the boys come along. And the decade of being a mom and a waitress and a once-and-future filmmaker, a filmmaker in my dreams, literally. Nobody wants to see that you were a mom or a waitress, nobody writes that on their resume. But I think maybe we should, because I genuinely believe that it makes you better at everything. Let’s taking writing, for instance, because that is what has me all-absorbed at the moment. One of my all time favorite quotes comes from Alyosha, whose elder tells him that we should “…care for most people exactly as one would for children…” Well, I think we should write about them that way as well! We should see them at their most vulnerable and needy, stripped bare and messy, but we should love them anyway. Even as we see all of their faults, we should feel an irresistible affection for them and generosity towards them. And surely this applies to all people, not just to writing about them, but to being with them and working with them from day to day…to bosses and co-workers and patients and customers and students. They might not be your child, but they’re somebody’s child. They were infants, once, just like the rest of us. In this way we can turn our disdain and frustration into empathy and tenderness. It might not be a marketable skill, it might not be something you list on your resume, but it seems very important to me right now.

Lemon cream tart

Lemon cream tart

Lemon cream tart! With a pecan shortbread crust! It all started when I saw an article in The Guardian about Perfect Lemon Posset. I love the idea of a posset, it seems so warm and comforting and Joan Aikeny. Not this version, though, this version was cool and elegant. And it looked delicious. It’s just cream, really, which somehow magically sets into a silky sort of custard. No eggs, though. It’s magic! All of the recipes suggested that it would be good with a shortbread cookie, so I thought, why not put it in a shortbread crust? That way you’re not just eating thickened cream. (You’re eating thickened cream with more butter and sugar alongside!) And I decided to flavor it with bay leaves and lemon, because this is an intriguing combination I’d seen in an old cookbook that I’ve wanted to try for a while. And I decided to add some rum, because a posset should have alcohol in it, dammit, even if it’s cooked off. I made a smallish tart, but if you wanted a full-sized one, use the full pint of cream.

Here’s Smooth Sailing, by Pete Rock, because this dessert is so smooooooth.
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Flourless pecan chocolate cake

Flourless pecan chocolate cake

Flourless pecan chocolate cake

The other night we built a fire in the backyard, we toasted marshmallows coated in nutella (Malcolm’s idea) and then we brought out the instruments. I played ukulele, Malcolm played his real guitar, and Isaac played his toy guitar. Malcolm knows three or four chords, I can play a few chords, but I can’t remember which ones they are, and Isaac knows no chords and his guitar is untunable. What a cacophony!! The neighbors love us! Isaac wrote a little song, and this is how it goes…

I can play guitar like a rock star
I can play guitar like a rock star
Nobody does it like me

I can tie my shoe just how I do
I can tie my shoe just how I do
Nobody does it like me

I can hit things physically Like I’m in misery
I can hit things physically like I’m in misery
Nobody does it like me

I can find a word
like I have 25 birds on my shoulder…

WAIT! WHAT? Twenty-five birds on your shoulder? What? Why? At that point I interrupted his song because I was so taken with the idea of Isaac with twenty-five birds on his shoulder that I wanted to hear more about it. Why were they there? What did it mean? But I couldn’t get him to clarify, and he had already taken himself to the bridge and beyond and there wasn’t any going back. Well! First of all, it’s true, nobody ties shoes like Isaac. Nobody. Second of all, how nice is it to hear your son write a song about being good at things? It’s a confident song. It’s good to hear. So I sit here with twenty-five birds on my shoulder, writing this to tell you about today’s Sunday interactive playlist. It’s songs about being good at things. They can be vaguely boastful bragging songs, of course, but extra points for songs about being good at specific things.

This was a good cake! It was too good! It was almost like fudge. It has no flour, so it’s dense and soft, but it does have pecans, coconut and chocolate. It has chocolate on top, too, which gives it a bit of crunch, and makes it like a big soft chocolate bar. It was very very easy to make, I did it almost all in the old food processor, which seems to be my new cake-baking technique.

Here’s a link to that playlist. I need some help with this one! I’m drawing a blank. Add your own, or leave a song in the comments and I’ll add it through the week.
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