“True or false, the universe has a universe.” True!
“True or false, all bats are scaly and rough.” Well, that’s complicated, because all bats are different. “Wrong! It’s false, all bats are incredibly soft and furry.” Wait a minute, just because your brother touched one bat and it was incredibly soft and furry does not mean that every bat in the whole world is soft and furry. That’s faulty reasoning. “Nope, Malcolm said so. All bats are soft and furry.”
“True or false, when a bat flaps its wings, the vibrations can be felt on the other side of the world.” Um, true? Short pause. “Dad said it was false.” Well, where did you hear it was true? Longer pause. “Batman. Why are you laughing?”
I’ve been feeling like a literary magpie, lately. Or maybe just an airhead. I’ll happen across a small passage that intrigues me, and then I’ll buy the whole book from the magical used book store across the street, which has every book you can ever think of, precisely when you’re thinking of it. Then I’ll read a chapter, be completely charmed by it but understand it not at all. I’ll read a wikipedia entry on the text, feel slightly more informed and slightly guilty, and then some new passage will capture my gnat-like attention, and I’ll chase after that like Clio chases after dried leaves. A bit of Aristotle, a bit of Hobbes, a bit of the Mahabarata…maybe a few pages of Tintin to clear the palate. And of course I want to talk about whatever I’m reading, I want to discuss it and try to understand it, but my lack of comprehension combines with my inability to string words together to form a sentence and I sound like a complete idiot. But I think I’m okay with that. I’m not in school, I don’t have to write an essay or pass a test. I don’t even have to finish a book if I don’t want to! Although I usually do want to, if only for a feeling of completion. I like to read books about other people trying to figure things out, even though I don’t believe it’s possible to do so. I love the language, particularly in the very old books, I like the perfect parallel between my inability to understand a concept and the strangeness of the words themselves. I’m fascinated by the connections between books from around the world and throughout history, by the patterns that form, and the way everybody was influenced by somebody else, their thoughts echo the thoughts of those who wrote before them. In a poem Isaac described himself as “a thinker.” I’m so glad that he is, and that he knows that he is! I like to see Isaac and Malcolm make sense of everything, everything that teachers tell them, and friends tell them, that they tell each other, everything they read, and yes, even all the important scientific facts they learn from a batman cartoon. They’re processing it all, and learning to doubt and to reason, and it’s a beautiful process to watch. There’s a beautiful portrait of young Francis Bacon by Nicholas Hilliard with an inscription that translates as, “If only I could paint his mind.” I know what he means!
UPDATE! This was our conversation on the way home from school, and it seemed relevant, and I want to remember it, so here you go…
Isaac: I frequently think about what was there before space.
Me: Do you frequently think about that?
Me: And what do you think was there?
Isaac: Well, I get frustrated, because I think there was nothing, but then I think about what color nothing would be.
And here’s The Pixies with Where is my Mind??? Which has been stuck in my head, for some reason.
2 T olive oil
2 t rosemary, chopped
1 t thyme
1 clove garlic, minced
1 t red pepper flakes
1 small fennel bulb, cleaned, trimmed and cut into thin 1-inch slices
1 can butter beans, rinsed and drained
1/2 cup white wine
1 bunch chard, soaked, washed, stems removed and chopped quite fine
1/2 bunch asparagus, washed, woody ends removed and chopped in 1/2-inch pieces
2 t capers
1 T butter
juice of half a lemon
salt and plenty of freshly ground pepper
1/2 cup castelvetrano olives, pitted and chopped
pasta or greens and grated sharp cheese, to serve
Warm the olive oil in a large skillet over medium heat. Add the garlic and herbs, and cook until the garlic starts to brown, about 1 minute. Add the fennel, stir and fry for a few minutes until it becomes translucent and starts to brown. Add the butter beans. Stir and fry for 4 or 5 minutes. Add the white wine, stir and cook till it’s reduced, a few minutes. Add the chard and about 1 cup of water. Cook for ten or fifteen minutes until the chard is wilted but bright. Add the capers and asparagus and more water if the pan has dried out – you want it to be quite saucy. Cover and cook until the asparagus is bright and tender. Stir in the butter and lemon and season well with salt and pepper. Scatter the olives over the top and serve with grated cheese to scatter on top. The boys ate it over gemelli pasta, and I ate it over greens.